It’s highly likely that your idols are pretentious and not what they seem. So what? Just be better than them, that’s all… and hope you can still relate to people after you’ve achieved the highest opinion of yourself imaginable.
having a dream. I’m with a bunch of random people. Like a field trip at elementary school. We’re high high up in the air, playing on this rocky waterfall… although it seems there’s many waterslides and crevices.. all created conveniently by nature for you to ride down on a boogie board.. all good fun. So yeah, really high up in the air. I didn’t want to look down often for I’m not a big fan of heights.
Myself and several other girls and boys from my “class” are taking a breather at the very top on the benches perched above the water. Suddenly this girl.. with medium-length black hair about 30 feet away, but at the same level as us is walking on one of the mountains talking on her phone.. saying “Meh, I give up.” Then she jumps from the edge of the mountain. We all look silently and sadly at each other. We hear a quick thump, and hear that girl say a minute later, “So, I guess I messed up on that last jump… Mkay.” She had landed on a closeby mountain not too far down.
..But then she jumps again. We watched her disappear from sight. I hear a sickening ‘roller coaster’ scream.. a scream that demanded a colossal height. Then we all knew it’s for real.
..we all silently exchange glances and a few of us cry, including me. why a random person has to kill themselves at the very end of my nice dream, I don’t know… but my dreams are never without some twisted denouement.